Good morning Everyone!
One month and one day after my last entry, I reappear to post the fact that I have spent the month in a complete relapse. No water, no food planning, nothing except holding on by the tips of my fingernails to the accomplishment of having cut down on eating breakfast at McDonald’s every morning. I think, in surfing terms, that would qualify as a wipe out!
Wipe Out!
Now, part of me wants to begin the litany: Why even start back? You know you’ll fail again. In fact, what kind of person is it who can’t even manage to keep three or four little goals a day? You”re just a loser. In fact, you’re such a loser that you might just as well go eat a chocolate cake since you’re never going to succeed with this…. etc, etc, etc. to the point that, if I listened, I could convince myself that due to the fact that I didn’t drink 32 ounces of water a day for the past month, I am going to end up destitute, homeless and living out of a shopping cart begging for food!
Starting Again!
Isn’t it funny how hard we can be on ourselves? If a good friend came to me and told me that she had just managed to not meet her goals for a month, would I even consider saying that (or even thinking that) about her? Of course not! What I would tell my friend is that everyone makes mistakes and fails to meet goals from time to time, that I know she is capable of meeting her goal and that what she needs to do is that if she wants to keep those goals, simply wipe the slate clean from last month and begin again, taking it just a day at a time and that if there is anything she needs that I can help her with, to please tell me.
Starting Again 2! I approach a wave….
So why am I willing to treat myself worse than I would treat my friend? Good question – one that I suspect requires both a diagnosis and years of therapy – but – here’s the best news of the day so far – I don’t have to know WHY to fix the issue! Instead, I can choose, today, to treat myself as I would my good friend, and remind myself that everyone makes mistakes, everyone fails to meet goals from time to time, that I CAN do this and that I am going to wipe the slate clean from last month and try again starting today. In other words, to be sure I mix at least one metaphor properly in this post, I am going to remount my surf board by rebooting my mind.
Reboot!
And, by the way, I am going to say to my self - “Self! Did you notice that you have continued to keep the progress from last month on the issue of not eating breakfast out?” My Self should then answer, “Why, you’re correct! I have NOT noticed that I have at least one goal that I have continued to maintain.” This means that even though last month qualifies as a wipe out, I at least managed to hold on to the board!
And off we go once more!
So here I stand up again and shoulder my duties/desires once more. This week, from today through next Wednesday, July 18, to work towards my goal of being healthier, I am choosing to drink 32 ounces of water a day, eat breakfast at home except on the one travel day that I foresee this week, and weigh myself.
Time to begin the adventure again! Who’s with me?
Have a great day!
Nancy
I am always with you.
By: Dottie Linn on July 12, 2012
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